Eyes Closed Experience
As the distortion, blurring, blind spots and hallucinations progressed, I noticed the appearance of hallucinations when my eyes were closed. I would be fully awake and would reopen my eyes then close them again to see if the same images would appear. They often did. I also found that I did not have to fixate my eyes to maintain the image. By moving my eyes the vision would also move and provide changing focal points.
Figure in Motion
This image started as a small light within the dark background. As I continued to look, the small white square appeared surrounded by the other grey rectangles. The ray of light seemed to emanate from the white square. Inside the white square appeared a figure in motion. When I completed the painting I asked my wife what she saw in the white square. She saw two figures and pointed each one out to me. Since I thought I’d only painted one, I set out to clarify a single figure. I then stopped and decided to leave it as originally perceived and painted.
Blue and Red Dots
Another common light pattern is the grouping of red and blue circles within a white background that is viewed through a hole in a black screen. In this pattern there are very subtle larger white circles embedded in the white background. All of which appears to float beyond the black darkness surrounding it.
Light Patterns
I have been seeing similar patterns of light when my eyes are closed. Despite the dark background, the iridescent gold light float in a red and blue background with a black center. The photo doesn't present the subtle transition. At the bottom center there is a single white light with emanating rays. A single white light is present in all the similar light patterns.
Castle
This was a post injection, eyes-closed experience. While I am unable to attribute any meaning to the image overall. It does contain the familiar distortion, circles, colors, and random elements that were not inspired by a specific eyes-open event. Like in all the paintings, the elements in this painting were in motion at the time.
Next paintings
Most of my paintings are quite small, but they take a surprisingly long time to complete. I hope to produce more soon. I have envisioned several and was pleased to discover that all the images are not just in black and white. Some were quite colorful, and as you can already see I am able to see straight lines again - when my eyes are closed.